Seeking Cerulean

Welcome to Seeking Cerulean.

Truthfully, I first created this blog in 2021. I let it sit for 3 whole years before I received a reminder email that my WordPress subscription would be renewing soon. I think a lot of you can relate that we often put our passion projects to the side because it’s all just “too much”. Life is too busy, too stressful, too much to handle, too much to possibly put effort into something that actually means a lot to us, right?

Wrong. Wrong. Wrong.

This year, I want each one of you to truly focus on you. What defines you as a person? And I don’t mean your occupation or if you are married or a parent or a homeowner. Those words may describe you, but they do not define you. I want know who you are. What makes you happy? What brings you sadness? What do you strive for in life? What activities bring you joy? Are you the person you always thought you would be?

I’ll be honest and say that I do not think I am the person I thought I would be. I am actually more than I could have ever imagined. I don’t mean to sound cocky, but there was a time when I thought maybe happiness wasn’t meant for me. Maybe bad things happened to me because I was a bad person. And maybe, the looming sadness I used to feel behind my facade of happiness and quirkiness was what I deserved in this life…

It took many years of introspection, reflection, and self-development to reach the the level of happiness and confidence with myself that I have now. I used to blame the world and everyone that wronged me for the person I was until I realized that maybe, the responsibility was my own. Maybe I could be better. Maybe I could be more, and have more, and deserve more. Maybe, dear reader, you can too.

The Oxford Language dictionary defines cerulean as a “deep blue in color like a clear sky.” Cerulean is my happy color. It was the color of my childhood bathroom that my mom and I painted to represent the color of where the ocean meets the sky. It was my most used crayon out of the 64 Crayola crayon box in grade school. It is the color of the sky after a storm, reminding us that despite all the ugliness that may come before, the end result can be spectacularly beautiful. Cerulean is something I seek, always. No matter what life throws at me, the color cerulean is a symbol of beauty and hope and life and love.

Whoever and wherever you are out there, I hope you know that you too deserve to experience all that the color cerulean represents.

I hope this blog helps you find your way there.